SOLDIER IN BATTLE-VOLUME THREE

YO!! WHAT’S UP VALENTINE ? As told by BROTHER LORNE LEI WRAY

I AIN’T ABOUT BEING GHETTO, HOOKED ON BLUNTS AND WINE

BUT EVEN ONE HIGH ON GRASS CAN STILL SEE THAT YOU ARE SO,SO, SO…. DANG FINE!YOUR SMILE LIGHTS UP THE DARKEST OF NIGHTLIKE THE STARS UP IN SPACEEACH TOOTH FINELY POLISHED & IN THE RIGHT PLACEFOR EACH STEP THAT YOU WALK I WOULD PLACE A ROSEBEFORE YOU STEP IN RAIN WATERMY JACKET I WOULD UNFOLDYOUR LAUGH BRINGS ME A HAPPINESS I CAN’T QUITE DESCRIBEAND MY EYES BECOME ENTRANCEDWITH THE MOVEMENT OF EACH THIGH ( EXCUSE ME )VERY INAPPROPRIATE LINE ( SMILE ) * s.l.p.r.c. censored *YOUR ESSENCE IS SOFTER THAN ANY RABBIT OR FUR OF ANY TYPE IN THIS WORLD MANY ARE WOMENBUT IT’S YOU WHO I LIKEAND YOU I WILL HOLD ON AND NEVER ASTRAYALL TO SAY WOULD YOU TAKE A SPACE IN MY HEARTON THIS VALENTINE’S DAY ?ALL THE VALENTINES IN THE HOUSE GO…..WOOF, WOOF, WOOF INSPIRED BY ONE OF THE MOST BEAUTIFUL BLACK WOMEN THAT I KNOW SISTER VERONICA ( V-CHIP) RILEY ON THIS VALENTINE’S DAY OF FEBRUARY 14, 2005 THANK YOU FOR YOUR SUPPORT © Omni-Crescent Audio & Visual Enterprises 2005

SECRET VALENTINE

As told by BROTHER LORNE LEI WRAY

SOMETIMES IT SADDENS MY HEART

AS ANOTHER TOUCHES YOUR HANDOR THAT IN SOME DARK CORNER ANOTHER IS PRESSING ONE’S LIPS UPON YOURSIT SADDENS MY HEART FOR TIME PLACES ME IN THE SHADOWSAS I CAN NOT VENTURE FORTH, SO I MAY NOT BE SEENI CAN NOT MAKE IT KNOWNI AM YOUR SECRET VALENTINEBUT FOR YOU I AM NOT A SECRETI AM AS KNOWN AS THE RIPE PEACH HANGING FROM A TREETHAT AWAITS IT’S PICKINGSO SWEET A TASTE TO CALM THE HUNGERBUT YOU MUST AVOID AS EVE WAS TOLD NOT TO EAT OFWE ARE AS TRUE AS THE STORY OF THE ADAM OF DIVINEBUT OTHERS CAN NOT KNOW OF THE SECRET VALENTINEBE IT KNOWN AND WE KNOW ALL SO TRUENO MATTER WHAT IT MAY APPEAR OR WHAT IS SAIDNO OTHER IS MY VALENTINE, MY HEART WAITS FOR YOUSO FEW ARE THESE WORDSTO THE ONE I FIND ALL SO FINEWHEN IT’S ALL SAID AND DONEEVEN THOU IT SEEMS ONE IS HIDDENBEHIND THE MASK OF THE SECRET VALENTINE Inspired by one of the most beautiful blackwomen I know inside and out SISTER SUSAN ( SUZY Q ) TURNER on this FEBRUARY 14, 2005 VALENTINE’S DAY 2005 © Omni-Crescent Audio & Visual Enterprises 2005 S.L.P.R.C. is a facility full of MURDERERS!!! They killed Wendy Huff by denying her H.I.V. medication, Johnny Johnson had heart problems due to his psych. Drugs they know can cause cardiac malfunctions, Robert Mack could not get released until he was filled with cancer, he died in two months after discharge, ask about the clients who have died here there are more who die and are abused, neglected, forced to do things against and say things against their will, YOU!!! COULD be the next to DIE!!!!! STOP MENTAL HEALTHTrummy Jackson was told he had only three days to live thus his only way to get discharged.Call or write your congressman and tell him or her about mental health’s mistreatment, they are not GOD & will not stop till you do something, do it now!!!!! MISSOURI STATE SENATOR PATRICK DOUGHERTYSTATE CAPITOL – ROOM 330201 WEST CAPITOL AVENUEJEFFERSON CITY, MISSOURI 65101 ( 573) 751-3599 or 4031 PARKER AVENUE ST.LOUIS, MO. 63116 HE IS WILLING TO LISTEN TO YOUR COMPLAINT AND HE SITS ON THE MENTAL HEALTH APPROPRIATIONS BOARD, STAND UP FOR YOURSELF BEFORE YOU ARE ALSO KILLED IN THEFALSE BELIEF THAT THEY ARE HELPING YOU GET BETTER. ACT NOW OR BE THE NEXT 2 DIE!!!

MAY 20, 2005

ALWAYS PEACE, PEACE IS A WORD USED IN THIS WORLD VERY LIGHTLY & TAKEN FOR GRANTED AS IF THIS WASN’T TRUE HOW COULD THIS WORLD BE PLUNGED INTO SO MUCH CHAOS & MAYHEM IF THOSE WHO CLAIM THEY WANT PEACE WOULD TRULY WANT AND PRACTICE SUCH. TODAY I WRITE THESE WORDS IN AN ATTEMPT TO SEEK A FORM OF PEACE TO HEAL THAT WHICH HAS BECOME IS DISREPAIR IF TRULY THERE WAS SOME FRIENDSHIP TO BEGIN WITH AND THAT IS WHERE THE QUESTION LIES, NOTHING CAN DESTROY A TRUE LOVE, FRIENDSHIP OR ONE YOU’VE MADE AN ALLIANCE, HOWEVER LOVE, FRIENDSHIP AND EVEN ALLIANCES ARE TESTED, UNFORTUNATELY SOME FALL TO THE SIDE NEVER TO BE HEARD FROM AGAIN. I WRITE THIS IN AN ATTEMPT TO SAVE THAT WHICH IS FALLEN FROM HITTING THE BOTTOM, I WRITE THIS BECAUSE I FEEL YOU WANT THE SAME THING IF NOT AFTER WHAT HAS OCCURRED WE SHOULD NOT BE TALKING TO EACH OTHER AT ALL, IF YOU DO NOT WANT TO HEAL THAT WHICH IS BROKEN YOU SHOULD NOT EVEN BE READING THESE WORDS OF COURSE YOU COULD BE LIKE THESE DOCTORS WHO DO NOT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT ME, THEY WISH TO USE MY WORDS TO SUPPORT THEIR LIE, YOU MAY ALSO HOPE TO USE THESE WORDS AGAINST ME AND IT WOULD SEEM ON MY PART TO BE SO FOOLISH TO GIVE AN ENEMY AMMUNITION TO HARM ME, BUT WHEN ONE IS TRULY SEEKING FORGIVENESS THIS IS THE CHANCE I HAVE TO TAKE, I MUST BE CAREFUL HOW I TREAD. I HAVE BEEN TOLD THAT YOU TOOK MY OF WHICH HAS SUDDENLY BECOME INAPPROPRIATE POEM TO THESE DOCTORS AND STAFF OUTSIDE AND NEVER HAVE BEEN IN OUR AFFAIRS.PAGE #2 FOR ME I DO NOT HOLD THIS AGAINST YOU AS I FIND THIS SOME DEFENSIVE MOVE ON YOUR PART AS YOU BELIEVE I HAVE VIOLATED YOUR TRUST AND THIS IS TRUE BUT YOU DO NOT FACTOR IN WHAT CAUSED SUCH. IT WOULD NOT BE WISE TO INVOLVE OTHERS IN OUR RELATIONSHIP THAT HAS BECOME CONTAMIN- ATED. IF YOU BELIEVE THEY HAVE SOME RESPECT OR LOVE FOR YOU, YOU SHOULD KNOW THAT YOU ARE SADLY MISTAKEN, YOU ARE JUST SOMEONE TO FURTHER GOSSIP ABOUT OR A TOOL USED TO HARM ME I HAVE NO HISTORY OF INAPPROPRIATE BEHAVIOR AND HAVE BEEN ACCUSED OF HAVING SOME ROMANTIC FLING WITH COUNTLESS STAFF INCLUDING YOURSELF & AFTER EIGHT YEARS THEY CAN NOT COME UP WITH NOTHING EXCEPT THIS WHITE WOMAN DOCTOR ON WARD-H CLAIMED I HAD SOME TYPE OF ROMANTIC FEELINGS FOR HER THAT SHE TOLD NO ONE ONLY WRITTEN IN MY CHART GIVING ME SOME NEW ILLNESS OF WHICH AT THIS TIME I HAVE NO DIAGNOIS NOR TAKE DRUGS, WHAT HAPPENED TO MY ILLNESS WHERE DID IT GO? THAT’S A SUBJECT IN ITSELF AGAIN A MISTAKE TO TAKE YOUR AFFAIRS TO THOSE WHO DO NOT GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU, CONTRARY TO POPULAR BELIEF I DO GIVE A DAMN ABOUT YOU EVEN THOU I DID FLIP, DON’T I HAVE A RIGHT TO FLIP OUT? ALSO CONTRARY TO POPULAR BELIEF MY FEELINGS CAN BE HURT ALSO, WHY DON’T YOU TRY BEING LOCKED UP FOR EIGHT YEARS FOR NO TRUE REASON SOME BODY TRYING TO FORCE YOU TO TAKE SOME STRANGE DRUGS AND SAY YOU BELIEVE WHAT YOU DON’T BELIEVE IN, LIVING IN A PLACE THAT USE THEIR POWER TO HUMILIATE & DEGRADE IN AN ATTEMPT TO FORCE THIS MADDNESS UPON YOU AND THEN HAVE PERSONS WHO CLAIM THEY ARE YOUR FRIENDPAGE # 3 SIT BACK AND WATCH THESE DOCTORS KILL YOUR FRIEND, WHEN I FIRST GOT INTO THIS MESS I KNEW MY BEST BET WAS TO VIEW ALL DOCTORS AND STAFF AS MY ENEMIES IF I DID I WOULD NOT BE WRITING YOU THIS LETTER BUT FOR ME THIS IS VERY DIFFICULT TO DO BECAUSE IF A PERSON APPROACHES ME IN A KIND MANNER I MUST TREAT THEM AS THEY HAVE TREATED ME, I DID NOT WANT YOUR OR ANY OF THESE PERSONS FRIENDSHIP BECAUSE YOU WORK FOR THOSE WHO SEEK TO DESTROY ME AND THIS STRANGE RELATIONSHIP IS THE ROOT OF OUR PROBLEM TODAY. I CAN NOT FIGURE YOU OUT, WHEN I DONE WHAT I DONE I THOUGHT WE WOULD NEVER SPEAK TO EACH OTHER AGAIN & I FELT THAT WOULD BE BEST BUT AGAIN YOU’VE PROVEN TRUE FRIENDSHIPS ARE HARD TO DESTROY & I MUST RESPECT YOU FOR THAT EVEN THOU YOU’VE BECOME PARANOID AGAINST ME OF WHICH IS UNDERSTANDABLE BUT TO INVOLVE OTHERS WHO DO NOT CARE ABOUT EITHER YOU OR ME WILL BRING YOU A RESULT YOU ARE ATTEMPTING TO AVOIDI’VE BECOME A BIT LONG WINDED BUT PERHAPS THIS IS WHAT IS NEEDED AS HEALING IS NEVER A SHORT PROCESS IF WHAT WE WANT HEALED LEFT IN A BETTER CONDITION THAN WHAT WAS STARTED. THE LAST TIME WE SPOKE AND YOU TALKED ABOUT WHAT I HAD DONE IT ALMOST BROUGHT YOU TO TEARS AND THIS IS WHY I DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY YOU SIMPLY DON’T SPEAK TO ME OR HAVE ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME ANYMORE AS THAT WAS MY PLAN, I HAD SO MUCH ANGER AGAINST YOU I WANTED TO DO SOMETHING STRONG ENOUGH EVEN IF I APOLOGIZED YOU WOULD NOT EXCEPT IT, BUT YOU ACCEPTED MY APOLOGY BUT THEN LATER YOU CLAIMED MY POEM WAS INAPPROPRIATE & YOU WENT PARANOID.PAGE # 4 IT WASN’T THE FACT THAT MY WRITING WAS INAPPROPRIATE IT WAS THE FACT YOU BECAME PARANOID IN THAT YOU FEEL SINCE THIS NEGRO DID THIS TO ME ONCE HE’LL DO IT AGAIN OF WHICH IS FAR FROM TRUE, IF LIKE YOU SAID WE HAD TALKED IT WOULD HAVE NEVER HAPPENED IN THE FIRST PLACE.YOU FEEL IF I CAN’T HAVE MY WAY OR SOMETHING TO THOSE ENDS I WOULD USE YOUR BIRTHDAY POEM AGAINST YOU AS EVIDENCE. FIRST OF ALL YOU SHOULD OF TALKED TO ME FIRST LIKE YOU TOLD ME TO TALK TO YOU, I DO NOT LIKE FOLKS IN MY AFFAIRS THAT I DIDN’T INVITE, I DO NOT REMEMBER INVITING ANYONE, THEY CAN GUESS ON THE OUTSIDE LOOKING IN. THE FIRST QUESTION SOMEONE WHEN ANY KIND OF SENSE IS WHY DID YOU ACCEPT THIS TO BEGIN WITH AND THEY HAVE ASKED THIS QUESTION? THIS IS WHY IT IS A MISTAKE TO TAKE THIS TO THE TEAM OR ANY OUTSIDE PERSON, THEY CAN NOT BRING ME HARM AND ONE QUESTION WILL LEAD TO ANOTHER PLACING YOU IN THE POSITION YOU WERE TRYING TO AVOID, I NEVER WAS SEEKING YOUR TERMINATION THEY KNOW I WAS USING THEM AND THEY DO NOT WANT TO HELP ME DO ANYTHING. LET ME MAKE SOMETHING VERY CLEAR WE ARE NOT ENEMIES AND AFTER THIS MY RESPECT FOR YOU IS MORE ADMIR- ABLE AS I CAN’T BELIEVE YOU FORGIVEN ME BUT AT THE SAME TIME YOU’VE BECOME PARANOID I DO NOT KNOW WHAT TO DO ABOUT THIS I GUESS LAY BACK AND HOPE TIME WILL HEAL IN THE MEANTIME I DO NOT WANT YOU TO BE PARANOID AGAINST ME, ON THE GRAVES OF OUR ANCESTORS THAT WILL NEVER HAPPEN AGAIN. BEFORE I CLOSE I WANT TO EXPLORE WHAT CAUSED ALL OF THIS TO BEGIN WITH, I WILL ACCEPT MY ROLE & THE CONSEQUENCE.PAGE #5 I HAVE NO CHOICE ( SMILE ) ALLOW ME TO DESCRIBE WHAT LEAD TO THIS VERY DISHONORABLE ACTION AGAINST YOU. AFTER I CAME BACK FROM FARMINGTON MY ATTITUDE TOWARDS CERTAIN FOLKS AHAD CHANGED & MY LEVEL OF TOLERANCE HAD WEAKENED, I HAD GROWN SICK OF THOSE WHO SMILE IN MY FACE & STAB ME IN THE BACK AND THEY FELT I DIDN’T KNOW. EVEN TODAY DUE TO THE FACT THAT MY FRIEND LIST IS GREATER THAN MY ENEMY LIST I GAIN INFORMATION THAT I WOULD NEVER BE PRIV-ELEGED TO. FOLKS TELLING ME WHAT TO DO BUT THEIR OWN LIFE IS IN TURMOIL LEAST TO SAY THEY MIGHT NOT BE INCARCERATED DUE TO SOME LAW BUT INCARCERATED LOCKED DOWN TO A JOB THEY DON’T LIKE TO STUPID SUPERVISORS, LOCKED DOWN TO A PERSON THEY DON’T LOVE BUT HANG ON TO DUE TO THEM SURVIVING ETC. DON’T YOU WANT TO BE FREE? FREE TO DO WHAT? FREE TO WHAT? A MENTAL PATIENT SOMEONE THESE DOCTORS CAN USE WITH NO CONSEQUENCE? I AM FREE BUT I MUST SUCK DOWN DRUGS I DON’T NEED AND FOLKS VIEW ME AS CRAZY CAUSE THESE DOCTORS LABELED ME THIS AS I AM ONLY TOOL TO BE USED, I REFUSE TO BE SOMEONE’S WHORE OR PROSTITUTE, I AM A MAN AND I WILL STAND UP AND FIGHT FOR MINE AND WHO I AM, I WATCH THESE SAME STAFF GIVE ME THIS ADVICE TO BOW DOWN AND THEY ARE WEAK, THEY STAY WITH PERSONS THEY DON’T LOVE, THEY WORK A JOB THEY HATE, THEY ALLOW STUPID STAFF WHO CLAIM TO BE LEADERS SAY & DO ANYTHING. SO IT SHOULDN’T BE A SURPRISE THAT I AM STRANGE AS DEATH WOULD BE BETTER RATHER THAN BOW DOWN TO THIS MADDNESS, THE STAFF ARE TREATED AS THEY ARE BECAUSE LIKE CLIENTSPAGE # 6 MANY STAFF ARE SLOW, RETARDED, SUBSTANCE ABUSERS THEY FIND SOME TYPE OF JOY IN BEING IGNORANT, THEN THEY BECOME FULL OF THEM SELVES BECAUSE THEIR OWN LIFE IS SCREWED UP AND FEEL BETTER ABOUT THEMSELVES CAUSE THEY ARE GIVEN CONTROL OVER MENTAL PATIENTS A CASE OF THE BLIND LEADING THE BLIND BUT A PROBLEM ARISES WHEN THEY ARE TOLD I AM MENTAL BUT WILL NOT RESPOND LIKE THE USUAL, PERHAPS DUE TO THE FACT I NEVER WAS SICK, PERHAPS IWAS RAILROAD BY THE LEGAL SYSTEM A SYSTEM THAT EXPLOITS THE POOR AND HAVE A HATRED TOWARDS

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